Fail.

Hello there everyone!

So I didn't get a chance to take a picture of my outfit today but I wasn't exactly too thrilled with it anyways. I had to wear my push-up bra with the dress I had on because the lace on my other nude colored bra showed through really badly. (The top of the dress is white) I put on my favorite VS cardigan to try to make it a little more modest but as Austin pointed out to me, my boobs looked fantastic (which means to me that they were very much exposed)

Anyways, the point of tonight's rant is to talk about how these past 3 weeks of school have been going. Well we are at the end of week 3 and I am basically so far behind. I feel like such a failure because of how far I am right now. I am supposed to be like 430 pages into a book right now for one of my classes and I am on page 25. I have also missed two online assignments for my Spanish class, which I feel incredibly to suited for. I literally feel like the stupidest one in the class because I feel like I know so little and everyone is so much farther ahead of me. I haven't read any of the articles I needed to for my other literature class and today we had to discuss the book we were have supposed to have read with a group and I just sat there like an idiot the whole time. I missed my online class on Wednesday because I was in the infirmary finding out that I have bronchitis (FUN FUN FUN!!) and we were supposed to have a discussion post due tonight at 9 and obviously I didn't get it in because I missed the lecture and I didn't know which topic I was supposed to talk about because she announced it in the lecture which my computer would not let me watch. I also have a Spanish outline I have to turn in tonight for my presentation that I'm giving next Friday. I have done a little bit of that but I still need to finish it (after I watch Jersey Shore of course!)

Basically, I feel like I am so completely far behind in everything and I feel like an absolute failure at life and school. I have absolutely no motivation to do anything related to school. I just wanna bum out and chill. I guess that just stems from the fact that I didn't have a summer. I literally had like 10 days of summer and that absolutely sucked. I just really wanna get my act together and try to do better for the rest of the semester. Also losing Bright Futures definitely should've boosted me to try and do so much better.

Sincerely,
Shannon